emo*stuff*tat*i*once*wrote

i want so much,yet it is seemingly out of my reach..

why is it tat i cannot do it the way that everyone does..that i should?

I glance outside,and there are dark clouds on the horizon.

Even though the rain,the endless precipitation from the blue sky leaves streaks,

yet not unlike the streaks of a salty liquid that continuously flows from my eyes,

ending up in the amber drink[its whiskey for those untrained in alcohol]

that is half full...or half empty?

As silence booms around the dilapidated ruined bus terminal,

i take out my mobile and call randomly.

Is there anyone there?

I used to tink that the word 'World' vaguely meant it was somewhere that my mobile's microwave signals would eventually reach.

but now i realise i should not have come..to be far away is a pain,an agonising sorrow that seems to whisper,weep and wail your name.

SHOOT

I JUX REMEMBERED!!!!

additional note

PEOPLE THIS IS A WARNING THAT U SHLD TAKE SERIOUSLY

DO NOT SHOOT ME ABT YH OR ANY OTHER GUY AGAIN

OR U WILL SUFFER THE SAME FATE AS KAILER AND JUNKANG

[ask them wat they have suffered from me.Kl more though. JK knows how to run,i'll give him that.]

AND PPL STOP PLAYING BIGTWO WITH THAT RIDICULOUS RULE OF ENDING WITH A TWO BEING WRONG

ARGHHH

I LOST SO MANY TIMES THANX TO THIS!!!!

LOL+D

bye~

watching the value for entertainment instead of story now+D

Ohkay,i know i haven't updated this so called BLOG of mine for AGES.

That's kinda because i have been busy

and this blog jux went out of my mind TOTALLY

people forgive me for not like tagging back or anything like tat

SORRY

HONEST

NO JOKE

ohkay,so my blog is kinda alive again

for another month at least

until olevels is over i won't update

anyways

GOOD NEWS*for me atleast*

PSYCHOLOGY COURSE IS IN!! I AM IN FOR IT!

preprelim is not tat bad*

EL-B3

EMATHS-A1

Chemi*B3

Physics*A1

SS-A1

Geography-B4

but most important of all

CHINESE OLEVEL GOT B3!!!!

YAY

HOORAY

YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so happy tat i nearly screamed when i saw it

ohwell

its kinda ohkay+D

GTG play at FB

Bye~

i am watching fated to love now. its really quite nice. but the main girl really is very naive.

Prince my foot siax

i tink tat she shld be more realistic

and she shld have gotten over it.

and Hana Yuri Dango aka Boys over Flowers is even more naive

God, one-its damned stupid to be naive,cute? i doubt it

Sigh

ohkay,at least its good entertainment value

dun scold the shows already,AbiGail!

Ohkay,now talking to myself

Wat's wrong wif me siax??????

Sigh.

ohkay

BYE~

REAL THIS TIME

NO ADD ONS

OTHERWISE U PPL WILL KILL ME FOR TOO LONG+D

AbigaiL

DMC*ROCK*ON!!!

Today went to alaine's place wif AiJia,Alaine[duh],Debbie,Joscelin,HuiXuan,Darren,JunKang,Kailer,and Vic.
[try saying tat in one go.pretty much guaranteed breathless+D]
We watched DMC together+D heck of a movie, i love rosa kato[evil boss of DMC's actress name]. She was really EVIL. I tink she is like twice of my Luna by at least 100 times. Well, she had the good heart of Negishi in mind[i TINK.i doubt]. Oh, i like how she ALWAYS extinguish her cigarette[by throwing it on negishi's head/throwing it on someone else's/or extinguishing it on her tongue{like those fire playin ppl}].That's really cool.
Detroit Metal City really rocked the house.
i was kinda surprised tat no one came in.Maybe coz they really can't hear us, and i really hope so, coz Johannes Krauser[Negishi] was swearing like a man in hell. SERIOUSLY. i can't believe tat he won.
One thing funny during the movie was when Negishi ran away from DMC and the DMC ppl were trying to convince him to come back. the other band members gave him wat they owe him,the boss actually wrote on a disk saying his motto[No Music*No Dream] and the fans gave him letters saying tat because of DMC they found themselves again, had dreams again. I commented[didn't think anyone was listening but WRONG.thinking aloud+D] tat wat the heck could they dream about from DMC, and everyone laughed. Alaine said they were of dreaming of death. I really doubt tat. Ohkay, SICK.
i tink tat will remain in my memories;i made people laugh+D
It's a nice feeling.Makes u feel really happy.
after DMC the guys went to play pool. i still can't understand their obsession wif it really. Maybe coz i don't play it. I'll try to learn it in the Dec Holidays.+D
Had lunch there.ThanX to Alaine's mum for sponsoring our lunch, and thanx for being so nice to help me order without chili.
Played Cheat.First round clear first. Second Round clear last. last round clear second. Not bad.+D
Played BIGTWO. Me favourite, so i win first round. second round i forget tat my last card cannot be 2, so technically no one win. otherwise me again.
LEFT Alaine's place wif e girls.. Long way home.Took MRT to Batok and took 176 to home..
Had my couz[other,pri2] over.
SHE WAS LIKE E EVIL BOSS OF DMC
LIKE TORNADO AND BLEW MY ROOM LIKE MAD
thanX god i saved it jux now
Ohkays.
i go talk to ppl now+D
AbiGaiL

EXamS*aRe*OVER+D

OMG.My blog SO OUTDATED.
anyways today was the LAST DAY OF EXAMS
i hate development,but i did my best,so i guess my results will be ohkay.
Went out for ANGELS&DEMONS wif Alaine,AiJia,Debbie,Karen,Darren,Vic,ZK,JunKanG,KaiLer[i am so sorry tat i actually forgot] and i tink BingKang[SO SORRY IF I SPELT WRONGLY] truth is i never talk to him b4, so no idea how he is like.
Today was quite fun+D the movie was nice but they made it like so predictable. Sighs.The fun of Dan Brown is tat he's unpredictable. So FAIL. But nice antimatter effects.They deviated from the movie as well. Well,movies aren't perfect.
Can't Wait for tomorro,watching DMC wif everyone at Alaine's place+D
OH. i almost forgot.
only to pl who were there
[remember our reactions when Aijia said HIS name.God, priceless really.]
AbiGaiL+D

OMG
exams are here,kinda scared
mycouzin stayover,then now quite nice+D
Study like mad wif Darren,Alaine,VicDario,ZhiKang and KaiLer.hope they liked my cousin.maybe more than me. Del's fun+D
i trying to fix my touchscreen
so far goin to desperate soon
then may crash+D
GG then
hopefully not
still ignoring someone
intend to do it for eternity unless he does wat he should
maybe delete his contact at this rate
and Alaine
the joke abt the contacts
please do it
i love to see the results
and the look on his face
will be priceless
i'll willingly get a scolding and crap for it
COZ PRICELESS
anyways
Alaine now in Malaysia cannot hear or see me
although apparently if i send her sms i won't be charged much
Her bill will be a diff story if she replies+D

oh yeah

almost forgot

yesterday went out with royce and kailer for study session

in the end was quite nice

we were doin a bit of work

got maybe too obsessed with tat forces question

even went online to find similar qn

to copy the method

SIGHS i forget my physics

coz no more motivation

i tink need to start challenges again

anyways

the guys were nice to me

and Royce's mum and dad treat us dinner

SO THANKS!!! i love the food

a bit too salty

but it's homecooked food

and i love home food

and thanks too to the guys

for sacrificing the friday

i mean

they could be doing something else

other than watching Spectacular Spiderman and Homework with me

so THANKS

i owe you two.

mid way dinner

i got the weirdest message

and almost choke on my food

thank god

i didn't die

still typing

still smiling

and i remember the dinner had Prawn

then i was like

there's me!

coz Prawn=Ebi[pronounced as ABI]

so lame really

AM SO SORRY FOR LAME ME

ohkays

LOVE U ALL

MERRYPARTMERRYMEET

LunAbiGail

i am starting to love the evil me

like chobits the twins+)

 

so many crazy stuff happened

now enjoying my freedom

i want competition

maybe i contest darren or KS?

i am really hoping they will accept

YAY if they do

BOO if they don't

Wish i can see him now

more than ever

crying everynite

coz i dream

so thank ur lucky gods KS, the fact that u can't dream

irks me coz i want that so badly

and Alaine

i totally can empathise

and anytime,

i will persuade my cousin to call his gang to beat him

but i kno u will kill me too

so maybe not such a gr8 idea

WAT AM I DOIN

I SO DO NOT POST LIKE THIS

oh crap.

maybe i ought to watch Alex Russo more

She rocks

i love her style

maybe i'll imitate that

oh yeah.

QuiZ results;freaking accurate

Needs excitement and constant stimulation. Willingly participates in activities that are thrilling and offer adventure."Has high standards and wants to make friends with those who have equally high standards; however, she has been unsuccessful in building these types of relationships. she is feeling under appreciated and her self-esteem is damaged because of it. she is uncomfortable with the situation and wishes to escape, but refuses to make compromises or lower her standards. Puts off resolving her problems because she afraid of the conflicts it may cause. In order to feel secure, she needs to feel appreciated by others so they will do what she asks of them and respect her opinions""Has high emotional expectations and desires to be the center of attention, which makes it difficult to find a satisfying relationship. her reserved, cautious nature makes her emotionally distant. "

Emotionally demanding and will involve herself in close relationships but won't get too involved or give too much of himself.

"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

"Although she is able to find contentment through sexual activity, she feels hopeless to change her problems and difficulties and continues to make the best of what she has."

"Believes her hopes and dreams are realistic and sticks to them stubbornly, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very precise in the qualities she seeks in a partner."

"If motivated, she will easily and quickly learn new skills. Is very intense person who seeks excitement and sexual stimulation. Wants others to see her as an exciting and interesting person, who is also charming and can easily influence others. Uses her charm to increase her chances of success and gain other people's trust."

"Impressed by unique and one of a kind things, and by people with exceptional personalities. Tries to takes the characteristics she likes in other people and apply it to herself as well as coming across as a unique individual."

"Feeling tension and stress brought on by situations which are out of her control, leaves her feeling helpless, anxious, and in adequate. she tries to escape into a fantasy world where things go her way and her desires are easier to reach."

So any potential BF, beware. u have been warned

Jux joking

but it quite accurate about me

anyways i am sort of in a complicated relationship

so i sort of taken if u put it in a different perspective

+)

ThanX for reading my thoughts

Love u all

AbiGail

DePaRtuReS

Today's outinG was GR8!!
ThanX and KUDOS to everyone who came...
It really made me happy.
Alaine and Darren and KS and Vic[i tink that's his name] playing DDR; It was nice watching them play, knowing that I CAN'T. they tried to make me play the drums; ppl, believe me when i say i suck at a particular game.LOL.
We took a couple of pics at the Arcade; but only alaine has them.
oh.. i almost forgot.
While Alaine/KS/Darren/Vic were playing DDR,
actually Darren/KS were TAKING PICTURES AND VIDEOS[i tink]
WHY DID U THINK I REFUSE TO DO THAT ALAINE???
i don't exactly like paparazzi.
LOL/NVM
i loved today; hope that there will be more days like this from now on.
thanX again to EVERYONE.

oh..
and 1 more thing..
i have to APOLOGIZE here...
KS; i am sorry for arguing with you, please forgive me; i was a little harsh wasn't i?
i mean, i know i have a way with words when i argue, and that way is sarcasm , so i know they hurt. SORRY.
Alaine; for dragging you into my drama and mess. Sorry i can't do anything for you and YiFang, but i hope that you will find ur individual happiness.
YiAn and HuiXuan- Sorry for arguing with alaine against KS in front of you. I bet u guys couldn't stand it. Hopefully u guys were laughing at our childishness. i am childish, so i am sorry.
Darren; also for dragging you into this mess. now we are kinda even since you dragged me in your mess. but ur mess is fun coz it's even more dramatic.

OK.
Now i'll have a good sleep tonite.
Love*HugS*[no Kisses]*[will try to remember to pass KS $3]
AbiGaiL

Love is something that's bittersweet
Simple and clear yet complex and strange stuff
I'm only worrying about things that don't matter
How does it feel? It feels like that
You're gentle and sincere yet eccentric
I pretend to be strong all over and compete against you
Just by being honest, it's so stimulating and I feel dizzy
I get hurt, I hurt you, in a preparation of pure feelings

Kinda feels like the relationship i have often.